Let me start off by saying I love blogging. I was skeptical at first, but I have really seen a change in my mood by expressing myself through writing.
There is so much I want to share with all of you, but I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little worried. I’m worried about my stepkid’s mom finding my blog, and judging me. I’m worried it will cause a problem and everything we have worked so hard to build, will diminish. I don’t talk bad about her and my blog isn’t even geared towards her, but she might find things offensive that I see as harmless.
Now you might be thinking, what are the chances she reads your blog? Like 1 in a million? I thought so too, until I found out she blogs as well. So the chances go from 1 in a million to like 1 in 50. Fabulous right?
I’ve had so much anxiety about this lately. There are events in the kids lives I want to write about but can’t, because what if she puts two and two together. What happens when she reads about other experiences in my life, ones that aren’t so pretty? What if she uses that against me in a fight, or when she’s angry? This is what my daily thought is every time I go to start a post.
First and foremost, I blog for ME. I blog to document my experiences as a stepmom and wife, to look back and reflect on the challenges I was facing at the time and how I overcame them. Then I began blogging because I found a network of other stepmoms. Other amazing, smart, funny, stepmoms who understand what I’m going through. Who give me advice, who share similar experiences, and who make me feel more at ease on how I’m really doing at this whole stepmom gig. Not even just stepmoms, but biological moms too. Moms who don’t judge me because I don’t have children of my own. I feel like I’m starting to build this support system, but how can I truly build one without laying it all out there? See my predicament?
What would you do if you were in this situation? Would you hold back? Tell her you blog too and get it out of the way? Or keep blogging the way I have been, anonymously?